trust the process

I just completed a 2 day retreat for reflective practice.  Half of the time was discussing information about development (as human beings, children in particular) but the other half was mostly people telling their stories and making sense of it within the developmental model we were looking at.  The theme always came back to this:  trust the process.

Trusting the process, when I google it , is related to words about "change" "counseling" "now" "intention" "growth" "spirituality" "manifesting" and "letting go"

Although my decision to be vegetarian has many reasons, I cannot deny the presence of spiritual growth as a core factor.  Will eating vegetables bring me closer to God?  I don't think its what I am eating, but more so what's been eating me...not living in the present moment of who I visualize to be.  I feel like not being conscious of what I eat is directly related to not being very conscious at all.  I say that because I am a junk food/fast food junkie.  But this week, although not without any temptation, has been relatively easy to eat well.  I think this is because I am actually THINKING about and ENJOYING the food I eat.

It's not the vegetables, it's the process, the commitment to consciousness, that I seek.  I have been so nervous about it but I'm going to trust the process and know that this growth will come from the many little moments of actually being present in my life.  It's about throwing yourself into each moment without attaching to the potential outcome.  Much to think about.